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I Live in a Constant state of Fear, and of Thanks

In Uncategorized on October 27, 2011 at 9:31 pm

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I am thankful for these lungs and the ability to do the things I love with ease.

I am, however, sometimes haunted by the fear that it will all be taken away from me.

Maybe it’s because scary Halloween is around the corner, but I’m feeling scared a bit more this week… I try and stay positive, because attitude is one of my best weapons.  Next month is my 3 Year Post Transplant Assessment. I already did the exercise test which was nearly on par with 2010’s ( a bit less, but I had a challenging summer with infection).  Being there in the exercise room though gave me wicked deja vu which I found to be scary! Attitude being all important, I must accept these fears as valid, and then get on the positive train and continue doing the things I love doing and feeling happy and grateful to breath : )

If a tree falls in the woods… Happiness!

In Uncategorized on October 17, 2011 at 5:32 am

Darn it all… it was in the way. We had to jump it : ) Honestly, few things thrill me as much as the sight of a fallen tree in a pathway. Except of course, the leaping of it! “Oh! A tree in the path?,” (heart skipping a beat with elation at the sheer wonderful chance of it all) “we’ll just have to jump it!”

Somehow it’s amazing to me that horses love to jump. I mean, clearly they do. For the sheer fun of it.  Matty today certainly didn’t need any convincing.   I think it’s why I love equines so much: they teach you to live in the moment.  Additionally  I present the excuse that this is a genetic urge in me as well.

To prove that theory, here’s the audio of my  Gramma Sawyer saying how her horse “M’Lady”  used to “dance, just DANCE” when she’d see a log in the woods that she could jump. Gramma, like the horses, seemed to have long mastered the art of loving life and living in the moment.

 

Lastly, here is Mom aboard the aforementioned M’Lday, who was an ex milk-cart horse who came to find a home with the Sawyers… and no doubt to love life.

 

M'Lady. Genetically funloving.

Musings

In Uncategorized on October 14, 2011 at 3:26 pm

Gypsy gets an ultra sound: and passes!

So, as you may have read in the last post, Gypsy’s ultra sound looks a million times better! In fact, the doctor has told me it’s time that I start riding her, at a walk, fifteen minutes a day. Well, this is all part of strengthening the leg again. And before she can get turn out in a big pasture I have to methodically condition her over many many weeks up to the canter. I have to honestly say, I never thought I’d canter on this pony again in my life.  But, the vet says before we turn her out (and risk her cantering on her own) that she must have been methodically built up to the ability to canter. So there. You have it.

I suppose it’s because I’ve had so much bad news in my own life medically that it was just fantastic and almost shocking to see the vast improvement in Gypsy’s ultra sound.  The previous once six months ago showed a black hole in the tendon where the tear was. This week, no hole… and I find this to be amazing! Quality of life for my pony has always been top in my mind, which is why I sourced the outdoor stall for her, bought the special wraps and spent two hours a day driving to rehab her at the walk. I even wore out my boots walking her for 25 – 30 minutes a day in hand.  I love the wee thing.

And “wee” is an apt word! When I finally got on Gypsy’s back she felt SO TINY! Even after over 20 years riding her I seemed to have forgotten! (Matty is considerably larger.)  I feel like I can just reach forward and touch Gypsy’s ears! I can!  It’s a wonderful thing. So pray that the walking continues to improve matters, please. In the meantime I continue to ride Matty to keep my own fitness. Gotta keep fit! My THREE YEAR post lung transplant assessment is coming up in November: isn’t that a gas? THREE YEARS. Whoa…..

I’m just sitting here waiting for a delivery of more CDs…. see, funny thing is, I keep selling all the ones I have. Isn’t that wonderful?  I’ve got some shows coming up this fall that I want stock for. We are in St Thomas, Edmonton, and maybe…. maybe even Halifax…. I guess Tom will have to “ride” Gypsy while I’m away ; )

Giving Thanks

In Uncategorized on October 11, 2011 at 3:28 pm

Had a lovely week leading into thanksgiving with plenty of singing, healthy riding, and warm temps. We finished off the weekend with a visit to Owen Sound to see the Parkers. Even the Pangmans came! Needless to say we all felt very thankful to be there, especially since Ruth got the all-clear with her cancer (oh, and lungs!) It was  a grand time and I’m really enjoying the new puffer version of my inhalation, which takes only five minutes & that means more time for the good stuff that life offers.   In the meantime, I give you photos, instead of more words!  **THIS JUST IN: VET GIVES GYPSY THE ALL CLEAR! ULTRA SOUND LOOKS GOOD! I can begin slowing riding her again**

During a family hike in Owen Sound.

One of my happiest places of all, riding matty, a sweet substitute

 

Gypsy loves the weather & vet is re-assessing her today!